Utter misery

I am writing this on MS Word as I take the Airport Express back to my apartment. It is almost midnight now. I took the 7pm Singapore Airlines flight back to HK. Was supposed to fly back last night originally but decided to stay on one more day, thinking I won’t be missed. Man I was wrong. My colleague & new boss was looking for me lor. Work can’t even wait one more day.

Hating cantoshithole is very tiring. Spending time apart from G is the most tiresome. This trip back is the most amount of time we have ever spent together as a couple. And that is all but a measly 10 days. It’s all very easy to have wild thoughts in my head to go ‘fuck HK, this is just a job, it is so not worth my personal pain & agony’ but another to know that this is one opportunity that I need to make full use of coz it will help go a long way in my future.

I would never have imagined I will turn into one of those girls whose lives evolve around their boyfriends. I’d like to think that I am capable of being way more sensible than that. But I cannot deny how deliriously happy we are whenever we are together and compare that to a lonely miserable me in a foreign land of unfriendly people whom I do not understand most of the time.

This is a miserable post because I am feeling totally utterly FUCKING miserable.

Back in HK for less than 1 hour and I already want to run home to G.

I hope work will take my mind off these unhappy thoughts. It is gonna be mad for the next few months owing to our crazy hectic release schedule. I really hope to be able to find back the zest and zeal I used to have for these exciting new albums from these huge artistes but most recently I find myself telling myself “Oh new album from Justin Timberlake, yeah whatever”. I reckon by end of this year if I still can’t find the zeal I used to once have for the job, it might be time for me to move on to do other things.

My eyes are tired from the misery and my body is just going through the motions in trying to get me back ‘home’. I must be strong! G will visit me in HK soon!